Bday gift or wot?!

Just wrapped up my 31st bday with a coincidental wfh coz of bandh and cake-cutting + gifting from hubby + kid's homeo doc visit + temple visit + cheers coorg dinner - bday treat to hubby.

Have joined a new workplace in Jan and was in an awkward state to ask for leave. Coz I am still new here and already took leave for my dad's spine surgery. However, wfh was granted by the company itself - which means God answered my prayers by making the universe around me act accordingly. Thanks a lot for that.

Got a few phone calls from good old friends and FB wishes. Felt quite nice but still dull as I had to attend a meeting with boss in the first half. I will not deny that it still made some difference to stay home and be around the baby physically. However, the day  got a little better once J arrived with cake in tow. Waited for baby to wake up from her nap and then cut cake. My first bday with her. :) Took pics, got ready for the activities given in the first para. Completed doc visit to get sweet tasting medicines for baby to cure her of her long-time cough-phlegm allergy. Hope it works as per doc's suggested timeline and cures her for good. Trying all possible methods to get baby better. Next, hubby, being the confused soul he is, asked me to pick my gift of my choice. So I took him to get my long time wish-list item - fancy anklet. The price was double than what I had imagined but he complied nicely. 2700/- phew. Its a nice fancy anklet with colored stones lining it - a perfect function wear bought to be worn for baby's 1st bday party. Then went to the temple which was almost closing for the day. Offered my prayers and thanks and booked for baby-special mannath - benne smearing on Hanuman. Got late to the temple but it happened mainly because of above mentioned events. Finally, dinner was to be at Annachi or KFC. Hubby wanted to try Annachi - what luck - it was no longer there. I did not know as I do not haunt these places anymore, thanks to domestic life post-marraige. Then headed to CPK - his favorite - but waiting time was 30 mins. So, almost decided to go to KFC that I got reminded of the Cheers Coorg place we saw on our way. Hubby obliged and we went there. Dinner wasnt peaceful with baby in tow but managed to do our best. Then home and an almost sleepless night, thanks to the two special people in my life. And I do not mean to complain about the sleepless part. :)

Also got to cut cake at office. However, small jhutka came in the form of mail at noon from office HR and its effect is so lasting that it will take a long time to recover, provided the relative effort to resolve it and good luck and fortune is everlasting in my tenure here and forever and everywhere I go. For that, I can only ask GOD to help me right now and nobody else. Life is already a struggle and if nothing helps, its the confidence that I am earning which helps. The money and role has boosted my confidence to a fair extent and also a lot of trust and responsibility has got entrusted on my shoulders. I sure need to work hard (with proper work-life balance that I desire) and be sincere to the whole deal to do well in my company, for my company and for my family. Mainly saying this as I also have  a daughter who I brought into this world unawares in a way. So I plead to the Almighty to please let me know what is in store for me at the very earliest. I just want it to be a safe, healthy, honorable, wealthy, peaceful and pleasant life ahead for me and my family now and forever. That will also let me die in content whenever it happens.


PLEASE HELP ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

V-day 2014!

Pleasant and busy V-day of 2014...

Two years ago, V-day was so different from how it is now. I had the whole day to bond with my husband and it will remain very special. A year ago, V-day was special in its own way as my daughter was almost going to arrive and we celebrated it with her inside me. This year, with her around, time is so much at crunch. Met hubby for lunch at work as dinner with him seems a luxury right now. Plus with so much office work, am glad we atleast made it for lunch. I chose my own gift but not bad, I got flowers (tho on demand). He too got his gifts which I have no idea I managed to shop. I even got the clothes to wear on time. All worked out well but just the wee bit regret that I wish I could have spent more time with him.

I hope things change on that front. I hope I have a lot of time on my hands to spend quality time to bond with daughter and husband ALWAYS. Hope hubby too gets a lot of time for us and we have a peaceful, healthy, happy life forever after. :)

My prayers for 2013 and always

Why does life have to seem so much in a rush. For example, it feels bad to  have the alarm ticking and dread nagging from elders at the back of my mind even when I am only wanting to bond with my husband and daughter at the start of a day like today. And when I do get some time to bond, it has a consequential effect on my work. Traffic and road rage and auto hassle. Then when I reach work, I dread as to what work awaits for me. Why should  I dread every small thing and more importantly, for my daughter’s safety? Why cannot life be a bed of roses with no such thorns?

I hope my life is a bed of roses without any thorns. I hope life allows me to spend as much free time as I want with my husband and daughter. I hope I always spend a lot of time bonding with  my husband and strengthen our relationship in every way. I hope he also has a lot of time to bond with me and strengthen our relationship in every way, like a couple, a parent and friend, confidante  and we will always be understanding and supportive to each other. I hope I will always spend a lot of time with my daughter every day and she has a very secure, safe, happy, peaceful, encouraging environment wherever she grows up. I hope the three of us will always live as a happy family in peace and happiness with a lot of support and love from his parents and my parents and siblings. I hope my daughter is always blessed with good health and good sense in everything and grows up to be a strong, sensible and good human being. I hope my relationships with my parents and sister and relatives and friends and colleagues will always be good, honest, peaceful and strong. I hope Jitendra has a good, stable, satisfying, motivating, inspiring, well-paying career that he enjoys and is blessed with good friends and supportive colleagues and relatives and siblings and parents. I hope my career provides me easy and interesting work in a wonderful working atmosphere with very good salary, good health and excellent work-life balance that I yearn for to spend time with my loved ones and learn and do new things and have fun at the same time in a peaceful co-existing environment with great colleagues.

I hope my daughter and parents have a great ,long, peaceful, satisfying healthy life. I hope dad’s surgery helps me recover soon and everything goes smooth for all of us in every front of life (like work and personal) during his recovery and surgery period. I hope I will be able to provide whatever Samyuktha wants in life along with my husband’s support. I hope my parents, sister and in-laws are always around my daughter and are supportive and take good care of my daughter forever whenever Jitendra and I are busy and away. I hope my sister earns her degree very soon and gets independent, and remains sensible and supportive to us. I hope we get a good, trust-worthy, healthy, sensible, reliable maid to take care of Samyuktha, wherever we live to support us as we are working parents. I hope life answers all my prayers and I thank God for everything I have got so far. 

Self-reliance...

Check this out. My previous blog was regarding companionship and this one is about self-reliance. Quite an irony but that is how life is.

Am quite mad at myself for throwing myself completely and eventually at someone whom I like. This is not the first time.

I wish to be self-reliant in all possible ways ALWAYS.

Today's fortune in orkut says: A good time to finish up old tasks.

Today's fortune in orkut says: A good time to finish up old tasks. Apt for my mood of blogging - been thinking of it for quite a while. Few things have been nagging me constantly for quite sometime coz I do not have complete control over them. They still do.

Firstly, been wondering how I am gonna cope up with the recession. Secondly, I wonder how I am gonna cope up with new challenges at work. Thirdly, I am silently praying everyday to end my saga.

"People who are having a love-sex relationship are continuously lying to each other because the very nature of the relationship demands that they do, because you have to make a love object of this person, which means that you editorialize about them. You cut out what you don't want to see, you add this if it isn't there. And so therefore you're building a lie." - Truman Capote

"A relationship, I think, is like a shark, you know? It has to constantly move forward or it dies. And I think what we got on our hands is a dead shark."


"You must go to bed with friends or whores, where money makes up the difference in beauty or desire." - W. H. Auden

"Relationships are like a dance, with visible energy racing back and forth between partners. Some relationships are the slow, dark dance of death." - Colette Dowling

Long-term commitment to an intimate relationship with one person of whatever sex is an essential need that people have in order to breed the qualities out of which nurturing thought can rise." - Gerda Lerner


"Almost all of our sorrows spring out of our relations with other people." - Arthur Schopenhauer


"It is the things in common that make relationships enjoyable, bit it is the little differences that make them interesting." - Todd Ruthman

Nowadays love is a matter of chance, matrimony a matter of money and divorce a matter of course." - Helen Rowland

My current wish list....

All I yearn currently is to have all the time in the world to be at my daughter's side and be for her and spend good quality time with my husband very often and enjoy all this as I am staying at my parents' place right now. To aid this now and forever, I sincerely hope that my husband and I are working in an office environment that is extremely flexible to our individual and couple needs and baby needs. Work has got to be extremely easy going with fair amount of creativity that keeps us interested individually in our projects. I hope to work with an extremely cooperative project team and trustworthy and fun-filled friendly writer team and an understanding cooperative manager. I hope I get a lot of very good friends at work who will always stand by me and these be long-term, frank, open, sincere friendships with healthy and ego-free competition. I also wish to do my best at home and work and maintain work-life balance and get to spend time for myself to indulge in my hobbies in the middle of all these responsibilities. I also wish for eternal financial freedom and comfort. Also, I wish for good health for baby, me, husband, parents, sister and in-laws. I also wish for parents to be able to have good financial and physical comfort always with good health and peace. I also very deeply desire to stay with husband and baby and family in a comfortable spacious house with good privacy, be it rented or own and the house (rented and own) should be in a safe locality that it makes it very convenient for us to travel to work soon, shop well with ease and send baby to school close to the house as she grows and good medical, postal, banking facilities at immediate reach with good trust-worthy neighbors. I also wish my sister studies well and scores well in all her exams and gets independent and responsible and level-headed very soon. I hope to also be strong, healthy, level-headed, patient and responsible always. I very sincerely wish my daughter always has good and safe surroundings to grow up in, has good health (mental, physical, emotional) and trustworthy good people around her. I hope we would be great parents for our daughter and she also is our obedient and smart daughter forever. I hope to have a very happy and peaceful married life and family forever and ever. :) I hope I improve all my skills and perform all my responsibilities (family or work or self) with ease and remain content always. God, please help me and make all my wishes to come true at the very earliest. Please help me.

itni shiddat se maine tumhe paane ki koshish ki hai ki har zarre ne mujhe tumse milane ki koshish ki hai....kehte hai agar kisi cheez ko dil se chaaho toh poori kaynath tumhein usse milane ki koshish mein lag jaati hai. Main apni saari khwaishon ko bahut jaldh poora hote hue dekhna chaahthi hoon. Bhagwan, meri madad karo aur mujh par daya karo. Dhanyawaad. 

Paradoxical twists - I can only sigh as of now

My daughter is now in her third month and making me realise that time is flying literally. She coos and smiles a lot when in a good mood. However, s-d does raise a havoc when she is irritated or hungry or troubled. Mood swings already. :-D I keep trying to figure out her mood swings and worry as to how I am gonna manage my career and her with my familial and spouse responsibilities. In the middle of all this, having just completed one year of marriage, I obviously miss my husband in all possible wa chances, anyway coming on Friday..... Grrrrr.... . ys. So does he. I wonder when we would start living together as he is still struggling to finalize house renovation plans. Lets see. Hoping for the worst and being prepared for the worst. God help us! Today, the duffer added to my already existing frustration. Calls up all of a sudden to announce that he is coming to pay us a visit as per his weekly deal. Then changes plans as his colleagues plan to drop in day after. Idiot. Bloody fool. Calls me two hours later when I have spent the time looking forward to spend time with him as and when possible. I pick it guessing why. He ls the visit coz its bike, rain. Hmmm. Also says anyway I am coming on Friday na! I am supposedly to not chide but be totally understanding. I so hate him. Why shud I go such mood swings when he is so cool. Aag tho Dono tharaf hai par ladka thoda teda hai. . So hate him and my situation. Hope life gets better and under my control soon. After all its my life in the first place.