please help please save me. Prayers all the more and thanks all the more

Mom is diagnosed with cancer. The treatment started with news of surgery and chemotherapy. Then the struggle to convince the family to arrange a caretaker. Then arrange finance for the treatments. Then comes the news that she is in stage 3 and needs injections worth 5-6L in addition to surgery and chemo therapy and radiation.

Thanks to God for helping parents agree to Sham's earnest request to get a caretaker. Thanks to Sham to find out insurance and convince parents about caretaker. Thank God Sham cleared CA with flying colors and got a job on time. Thanks to Sham for finding out about caretaker. Thanks to Nimisha for referring her to DB. Thanks to my husband for being cooperative and loving. Thank God that we found Jyoti who has been reliable and sincere so far. Thank God the surgery went well and mom's first chemotherapy also went well. Thank God Samyuktha started walking on time and is healthy. Thank God that we were able to help my FIL and mom on time for their illness. Thank God that I chose CHR as my work place where it has been quite cooperative so far. Thank God that Sumathi helped me with money.

All I pray now is:

• For mom's speedy recovery with good health in all ways,
• For Sam to grow up in the middle of lot of love / care / warmth / safety / security / good people,
• For a stable, satisfying, secure, interesting, easy job with good pay - CHR is great in terms of overall flexibility and pay. I also pray that I learn new things in this job and make good, ever-lasting sincere friendships and have a good rapport with every single person in this office and at the same time, enjoy my exclusivity. I also pray that they only look at my M.A degree and not question me or investigate further. I pray that I perform at work well and earn a good name and good hike and good appraisals always. However, I also pray that CHR gets taken over by a very good software company and I get to still keep my job and get paid well and finish my tasks in proper deadlines that never affect my family responsibilities,
• For a peaceful, loving relationship with Jitendra
• For a peaceful, co-existent, harmonious relationship with my in-laws
• For a peaceful, co-existent, harmonious relationship with my parents and sister
• For a peaceful, interesting, warm, loving relationship with my daughter 
• For Jyoti and Susan to have peaceful relationship with us and peace at their families and good health
• For good health for me, my family, my kid, my husband, my parents, my sister, my in-laws
• For Sham to learn and earn well at her new job and maintain cordial relations with us and good health always
• For Jitendra to learn and earn well at his new job and maintain cordial relations with us and good health always
• For sufficient privacy at home with Jitendra and Samyuktha always
• I have a strong and loving relationship with my daughter Samyuktha always

God, please help me overcome all the hurdles in my way in my life and make me more efficient and peaceful for all the times ahead. I yearn for a healthy, peaceful, content, rich, luxurious, satisfying life for me and my family.

WHAT TO DO?!

Li fe sucks. I am 31 and I am still so lost as to what I want to do. Mainly because of work. I so hate coming to this office since the past few days. I so hate even working on any task that has been assigned or expected. This hatred hit me like a wave when I walked into the office and saw the director first. I did not meet his eyes but I had heard what was on his mind about me. And the team has its own opinion about me. Hardly anyone talks or smiles at me and it hits me the most during lunch. I ping a girl who is in the team and she is a weird kind of her own. Brings home food and will talk well with her team. We bonded for a few days during lunch but then she decided to spend more time with her team and it has gotten awkward. Either I have created an impression that I do not talk or they think I am a boring kind. I never ever dreamt that there will be a time when I will have to worry how I will have lunch. There have been days when I have just sat at my desk hungry, then gone alone late after much push Whichever way, why this curse on me?!  It began after that fateful twist of events in NetApp and is still following me wherever I go.

I guess the director has already decided that I must be replaced and Madan is just tolling time to tell it to me directly. The contractor is joining on Apr 24th and I have no clue as to what we are expected to do - work together or she is my replacement and I just leave. I have put forth the last straw I had - round table review suggestion. This team is always too busy to even take suggestions related to documentation, let alone read what they gave me as inputs. But life can be lived only with hope. So, I have asked Madan to help me out and reasoned it as well. Let us see how the team cooperates and how things change, eventually, me still with this job and documenting well and making good friends and earning well and balancing work-home as good as it can get. God help me.

Either you make this job better for me (where I get good work to do with good acknowledgement and good sincerity and good wfh options to take care of Samyuktha), JUST like how I want it or give me back the NetApp job with a better manager and a better team or get me a very nice home-based permanent corporate job with a very good pay and perks (just like the current job or NetApp job) and as per my terms and conditions. I need the solution at the very EARLIEST so that I can eagerly look forward to life ahead. Samyuktha needs a lot of care and attention, so that she can grow in a secure and safe environment, learn good things, become a smart girl and grow into a good human being. So does my family - husband, in-laws, parents, sister. Please ensure that I have financial independence ALWAYS and that I be a prudent and smart saver and spender.

If I am going to be working in this company or elsewhere as per your plans for me, then please ensure that we find a VERY GOOD NANNY for my daughter as she needs care and love from all of us and from the nanny and my in-laws when Jitendra and I are away from home at work.

If I am going to be a house-wife with a work from home well-paying job, then the job should be greatly flexible and satisfying, such that it makes up for the staying indoors part and also helps me manage home front duties and Samyuktha's care VERY WELL. PLEASE HELP. IT IS A MIRACLE. BUT PLEASE HELP.

My husband and I should always have very good time and spend a lot of quality time with our child. She should never feel left out or miserable. My husband and I should also always be a happy, always-in-love, peacefully co-existing and respectful, romantic couple. Please help.

Please help me and bless me with good health and good thoughts and actions, so that I can perform my responsibilities WELL.

PLEASE HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!