Another one of those weird conversations happens to me today after six or seven long years. A friend of mine from my previous work-place happens to call me all of a sudden after a very long time. The conversation begins with the usual catching up on what has been happening in each other's lives. This friend had hinted his budding interest in me some years ago and I decided to nip it in the bud with discreet hints and we moved away from that subject after that forever. However, today's phone call seemed to be turning into that subject - He tells me that he had always been harbouring the urge to call me on the day when he had proved enough to me that he was serious in life and would make it big and today was it. Whoa! I could not even remotely sense that topic coming up. He had remarked at how confident and cool, yet polite I sounded in our conversation which was very different from my polite and demure self of those years. He mentioned that he had signed off a deal with my company and would be getting into some business contract. My intention was only to congratulate him and make it a catching up session whenever he would visit my office. But lo, this was so different than my wildest imaginations! :)

When the proving dialogue came up in the conversation, his cousin takes the phone from him and interjects into the call to confess that he was standing in the middle of a room with all these cousins around wherein he had told them to join him in the room to hear him talk to me. Little did I realise what was happening so far but I could sense what would come up. His cousin went on to say that my friend had always been mentioning about his impending day to call me and show how he had acheived something in life. Like I was someone very important to him and who mattered a lot to him but had not believed in him or his ideals. His cousins thought that this guy was a weirdo and I was a mere figment of his imagination. Even worse, the weirdo had made them leave all their important appointments aside and join him today. After a while, when I had overcome the reeling diversion, I interrupted the cousin and asked if the friend was high. I was right and then asked him to hand over the phone to my friend. I curtly responded saying that I was not understanding what was happening and he could call me back if he wanted to speak but only whenever he had sorted out this incident and was ready to catch up other than this subject. My friend meekly responded saying he would call back but I knew he might never be able to do that. It does not matter anymore unless he gets over his past-filled thoughts.

I liked the way I ended the conversation but I was disturbed that the past could come back and haunt, especially with such immaturity. I narrated this incident to to-be-Leopold and he guffawed so hard at my over-emotional friends and fan club. :D Felt good to see someone so grounded and neutral. :) That is what I love about him and sometimes it makes me want to wrench his neck when he tries to burst the bubble during our good times or his things-to-do.

Prithee, past better remain ONLY past. Present leads to the future and I seem to know where I want to go. God help me with good thoughts, good luck and positive strength to take life as it comes and also make it how I would like it to be.

Companionship

Liked this image which I got from a random Google search for the word which is the title and subject of this blog post.

As in my previous post, to-be-Leopold and I are getting to know each other better with almost every passing day. Work and other chores take up most of our time and geographical distance/time difference makes it difficult for us to concentrate on our relationship during his 6-week firang trip. However, he and I are almost at our sweet-nothings phase and sometimes it seems as if it is definitely filled with meaningful conversations. These conversations obviously allows us to peek into our minds and also gets us closer. I also found the will power to confide one of my deepest disappointment and was almost ready to brace whatever came my way. It was very close to my heart and esteem. He handled it so well that I wish I could have crossed all the geographical distance/time difference barriers and expressed my feelings in action than just words.

Looking back at how we managed our conversations showed how much one can accommodate for another person, if it were something meaningful and special. I, for one, am a very lazy morning person but would make time to complete chores to get ready to work quickly and attend his calls, so that we speak in leisure. He, on his turn, would call up twice a day without fail and somewhere somehow ensure that his activities are not disturbed and also that we spend time talking in leisure, though it pinches his pocket more than mine. Pray the corporate jungle does a favor to his pocket and expenses it completely on his return without a fuss.

During our conversations over these two weeks, I realized I had bugged him over a petty nagging issue at work and poor sweetheart of mine was all ears initially but it tested his patience too in the end. I did not realize this, dumb me. Am now making a conscious effort to digress from such topics because I miss him a lot and do not want to spend time overdoing in sharing something trivial and totally unrelated. I have started every teensy-weensy bit of my daily life to him. He is still quite collected but shedding his reserved side gradually. I appreciate his patience and his non-judgmental nature. Turning out to be a level-headed, sometimes over-realist with whom the relationship does not feel like the usual coy-lusty couple category but also good companionship with a quite good give-take balance.

Though he says that the marriage is a boring long-journey one-way ticket, we keep trying to agree to disagree because I am aware of that side and also believe in the companionship factor. We are from different cultures and friction is bound to happen, especially with his over-responsible nature compared to my laid-back side. Hoping to work on the relationship well in the long-term without life-disturbing chaos. His restrained nature makes me shake him up to open up but I notice that he has started warming up gradually now. Quite an extreme side of empathy exists that might not always be fair for himself but the way he melts, I'd say he deserves a hug and more. I remember confiding to a close friend that he influences me by making me more tolerant and sometimes optimistic with a check at the back of my mind. :) I might develop a better sense of empathy, thanks to him. However, I hope he pushes himself at a quicker pace with time because he really is good at whatever he likes to do but remains in the spot due to some unreasonable hesitation.

I would recommend such relationships to anybody and everybody as long as it is helping the people involved grow into better personalities in all spheres of life and still remain deep-rooted to each other.