Cool.... Didnt realise time flying by... Managed to complete one year of maintaining a blog, considering the rate of my on-off blogging. :)
Looking back in this one year blogs, I find somethings just the same - hanging in there and some new... Thankfully, am glad there are some new interesting, weird, funny, fond memories that I can carry forward to the next year and not blame that this year has been UNeventful.
Might try blogging more often. Alas, I cant help but add "lets see..." :)
Monday, November 10, 2008
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
Mad mad world or mad mad me?!
Hmmm, I am wondering if its a mad mad world out there? Or is it just me who is really mad. I have enough proof to consider the latter since I am riding on too many shoes and so, eventually freak for reasons obvious only to me.
Imagine this: A friend calls me and I miss it. I call back after a while and it gets cut. I misinterpret the message thinking its the network acting weird and I call again. It gets cut again. Now I realise that I should not have tried calling the second time in the first place. The person is busy or whatever and I disturb them without getting the hint. So embarassing but I still dont get it. As if this wasnt enough, this nags me and I call again after a while. Now it gets cut and I land up red-faced! :(
The other person could put me at ease by just responding with an sms rather than just cutting off my calls. When this happens to people coz of calling me, I tell them to cool off and advice them that there is some option called "messaging". And look at me, such a loser! :P But more than the loser, its the fish causing this volatility in me. :D How amusing!
Why cant I just cool off and let the person respond? Maybe the "busy" person is watching a movie or doing something interesting wherein a call would only be an irritant? Or very well, avoiding me. But alas, me gone mad coz something is fishy somewhere and I very well know where. This fish stings me in return as the saying "As you sow, so you reap". If the fish bites me real hard, I better learn to take it. If the fish was just a figment of my imagination, then I better take that too... with a pinch of salt, as a matter of fact. :) I want it to be the latter. And who knows, it will be. I shall know in time. :)
In the end of this blog, I realise that its me who is mad. The world is still quite a sane place, atleast saner than me. :P
Imagine this: A friend calls me and I miss it. I call back after a while and it gets cut. I misinterpret the message thinking its the network acting weird and I call again. It gets cut again. Now I realise that I should not have tried calling the second time in the first place. The person is busy or whatever and I disturb them without getting the hint. So embarassing but I still dont get it. As if this wasnt enough, this nags me and I call again after a while. Now it gets cut and I land up red-faced! :(
The other person could put me at ease by just responding with an sms rather than just cutting off my calls. When this happens to people coz of calling me, I tell them to cool off and advice them that there is some option called "messaging". And look at me, such a loser! :P But more than the loser, its the fish causing this volatility in me. :D How amusing!
Why cant I just cool off and let the person respond? Maybe the "busy" person is watching a movie or doing something interesting wherein a call would only be an irritant? Or very well, avoiding me. But alas, me gone mad coz something is fishy somewhere and I very well know where. This fish stings me in return as the saying "As you sow, so you reap". If the fish bites me real hard, I better learn to take it. If the fish was just a figment of my imagination, then I better take that too... with a pinch of salt, as a matter of fact. :) I want it to be the latter. And who knows, it will be. I shall know in time. :)
In the end of this blog, I realise that its me who is mad. The world is still quite a sane place, atleast saner than me. :P
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
Long time dream come true! (Lots pending, mind it!) :D
Dream coming true can give you such a high. :) Coming to the point, it was a long time wish to do a 1-day flight trip to Chennai. Also, its been a long time dream to fly. :) And these came true on Aug 25, 2008. Details follow.
I got this golden opportunity, thanks to my company. Thank God that everything fell in place and it was a complete fun trip. :) I had to go to Chennai due to combined reasons, both work and personal. I am a travel-alone-phobic. He he. So I ensured that I tagged my best friend along with me on this trip. Come on, my friend gets the privilege of accompanying me on my first flight. ;) This friend would be remembered whenever I recount my first flight experience with fondness at any point in the coming years. ;)
The whole thing started at 3am, Monday and ended on 3am, Tuesday. Exact 24 hours! :) We took the cab at 3:30am till J B Nagar and then boarded BIA shuttle at 4. Reached at 5, on time for my flight at 6:30. I was so much in awe of the international look of BIA. :) I learnt what it is to check-in, security etc. and get a boarding pass. The prices of everything inside the airport got me dizzy. He he. To add to it, I was too excited to have anything. :)
Dad had greatly advised to carry an umbrella and so, I had to leave my bag and send it as luggage. I had heard enough nightmares about people missing their baggage and that set me off. To top it, my friend kept chiding for this smart act of following my dad's advice and mentioned more than once "Unfortunately, we will have to leave the bag in the luggage and collect it later. There are chances of missing it!" I got wild! I was hearing the words that I was thinking! But then cooled off! :D I did not want this minor thing to spoil my excitement and obviously, optimism pays off! And this eased the tiff too! ;)
Blore to Chennai flight was a Jet Airways one. Smooth and pretty comfy. I got the window seat, thanks to my friend's generosity. :D It was so exciting to experience the take-off - similar to the Drop zone effect in Wonderla. Everything outside the window was growing small and then nothing but a white carpet of spuds (small groups of clouds)!!! Sunrise was a sight to see too!
Landed at 8ish and collected the bag. Stepped out to find a city taxi waiting (Thanks to my friend!)... Took that and headed to the office to complete my work! AC made the whole cab journey pleasant! ;)
Then I had to ditch my friend for approx. 4 hours. Poor thing! I got to enjoy the A/C comfort of the waiting hall for most of the time and the whole thing went on damn well! I saw a lot of newly-weds there and it got me a little sad but then, everything has a time of its own. Also, you gotta make things work for you. Women in silk saris in Chennai surprise me always. :) Anyways, I step out of the office and see my friend dripping in sweat and all irritated. There was no respite from the heat. I had already troubled this poor one enough. I was amused that my mood was pleasant and my friend was so irritated. Its usually the reverse. So, I was patient and we headed to Besant Nagar. Autos ask exorbitant rates in Chennai but thats feasible than the cab rates. :)
Had lunch in a place called Karaikudi. My friend gorged on the meals. I stuck to plain rice and fish curry. Food was ok. The group that came towards the end of lunch was quite a sight to see. The leader of that gang was a middle-aged lady and was such a pissing show-off. Hell-bent on creating a scene and demanding unnecessary attention. Her friends (or so colleagues) were one dumb boring group of men and women. Sigh, she was one pain!
I love Chennai for many reasons... its my hometown, all my cousins stay there and last but not the least, the beach. I hate Chennai for its hot and humid weather but it does not stand anything against the beach. :) I am crazy about the ocean, such that a glimpse of it can get me berserk. After lunch, I was so excited to see the calm Besant Nagar. So walked around and did some window shopping in The dollar store, FabIndia and Health & Glow. I obviously did little shopping in Dollar store and Health & Glow, true to my nature. FabIndia was above my budget but I like visiting that place. One tidbit news - Its the one which comes in Mozhi movie. ;)
My friend was still irritated and exhausted after the 4 hour wait and the heat. So, we squatted in Arun's icecream parlour which is just around the corner from the beach. I was enjoying the kids there than the icecream. One of the kid's mom was complaining about her daughter to her friend. It made me wonder why she took the pains of having a kid at such a late age. Its better to have children when a woman is in her mid-20s or late-20s. You would have the strength to run around your lil one! :D Kids are after all meant to fool around and goof up! Ahem, lets see how I react when my little one goofs up and creates a mess! Long way to go, let me first hook up and get married!!! :D
Headed to the beach at 3:30pm and kept strolling till 5:15pm. Was a pleasure to see kids, dogs and people of all ages having fun! The color of the sea here is much more nicer than Marina and its cleaner too! I was so tempted to jump into the sea but then had to head back home that night. So made myself content with letting the waves lap at my feet. The waves are relentless and their incessant lashing is a story in itself! Listening to the waves and watching them always puts me at ease. :) Extremely therapeutic! We had fun making weird footprints and watching tiny white crabs, live shells. It might sound silly but a visit to the beach costs nothing. At the same time, its priceless! :) The ocean makes you realise that nature is mighty and man is so teeny-weeny compared to it. But man tends to forget such things easily. :)
After the fun time at the beach, my friend's mood got better. Thank God! I noticed the famous Murugan Idly shop just around the corner. So, headed there straight and gorged on yummy dosas and also a cup of degree kaapi. Sigh, it was so fulfilling. My friend had to drag me out of the beach. I wanted to literally stay there and could not take my eyes off the ocean. I took a video of the ocean though my mind's eye has captured the beauty better. Watching the video has become my feel-good factor.
Took an auto back to the airport. Flight was at 8:45pm. Air Deccan. My friend teased me saying I get to experience both international and national flight experience on the same day. True to his word, Deccan was a small ATR aircraft compared to the Jet Airways aircraft. Boarded it and got the window seat again. But it wasnt satisfying. I could not ask for more since I was exhausted and just wanted to head back home since the next day was a working day. Some jinxed prayers mine were... the flight could not land due to turbulent weather in BIA. So the pilot (an incomprehensible European) hovered the aircraft for over 2 hours and put us back in Chennai at 11:00 pm. All of us were frustrated so as to when an alternate flight would be arranged and it was so late already. To add to it, we were so hungry. Once we landed, a pleasant surprise waited. We were put in a Kingfisher flight!!! It was such a pleasant experience to see the plush seating, petite airhostesses and the mighty aircraft! Kudos to Vijay Mallya! I am a big fan of his now! I got the window seat again and it was so satisfying. We got to eat small sandwiches and it was just perfect. There was a good-looking but stinking dude sitting next to us and laughing over those recorded videos on the flight. Hmmm, he seemed interesting but was more of an empty vessel. Works in Infosys is my guess. :)
My friend and I were exhausted. So we could not completely realise the Kingfisher comforts but I will rave on about it for years to come. :) Landed at 12:45 and rushed to board the BIA shuttle. Thank God, the cab driver waited for us when we reached J B Nagar at 2. I had done the booking long back for 11pm but he waited for us till 2am. :) God bless him. We reached at 2:35 am and I was so worried about my friend who was dozing off to glory. Thankfully, all reached safe and the whole trip has become a memorable one! :)
I recounted all this to most of my immediate friends and obviously, my family. All of them teased me about my childish enthusiasm and gloating. He he.
No matter what others say, this trip would be recounted for years to come and its my most special one. After all, it has been a long time dream come true! Many would have had their first flight experience when they were much younger but mine was this one. To top it, I got to fulfill my wish of a one-day flight trip to Chennai wherein my whole purpose to visit was the beach. :D Ocean is definitely one of the best creations of God and nature. Sigh!
I got this golden opportunity, thanks to my company. Thank God that everything fell in place and it was a complete fun trip. :) I had to go to Chennai due to combined reasons, both work and personal. I am a travel-alone-phobic. He he. So I ensured that I tagged my best friend along with me on this trip. Come on, my friend gets the privilege of accompanying me on my first flight. ;) This friend would be remembered whenever I recount my first flight experience with fondness at any point in the coming years. ;)
The whole thing started at 3am, Monday and ended on 3am, Tuesday. Exact 24 hours! :) We took the cab at 3:30am till J B Nagar and then boarded BIA shuttle at 4. Reached at 5, on time for my flight at 6:30. I was so much in awe of the international look of BIA. :) I learnt what it is to check-in, security etc. and get a boarding pass. The prices of everything inside the airport got me dizzy. He he. To add to it, I was too excited to have anything. :)
Dad had greatly advised to carry an umbrella and so, I had to leave my bag and send it as luggage. I had heard enough nightmares about people missing their baggage and that set me off. To top it, my friend kept chiding for this smart act of following my dad's advice and mentioned more than once "Unfortunately, we will have to leave the bag in the luggage and collect it later. There are chances of missing it!" I got wild! I was hearing the words that I was thinking! But then cooled off! :D I did not want this minor thing to spoil my excitement and obviously, optimism pays off! And this eased the tiff too! ;)
Blore to Chennai flight was a Jet Airways one. Smooth and pretty comfy. I got the window seat, thanks to my friend's generosity. :D It was so exciting to experience the take-off - similar to the Drop zone effect in Wonderla. Everything outside the window was growing small and then nothing but a white carpet of spuds (small groups of clouds)!!! Sunrise was a sight to see too!
Landed at 8ish and collected the bag. Stepped out to find a city taxi waiting (Thanks to my friend!)... Took that and headed to the office to complete my work! AC made the whole cab journey pleasant! ;)
Then I had to ditch my friend for approx. 4 hours. Poor thing! I got to enjoy the A/C comfort of the waiting hall for most of the time and the whole thing went on damn well! I saw a lot of newly-weds there and it got me a little sad but then, everything has a time of its own. Also, you gotta make things work for you. Women in silk saris in Chennai surprise me always. :) Anyways, I step out of the office and see my friend dripping in sweat and all irritated. There was no respite from the heat. I had already troubled this poor one enough. I was amused that my mood was pleasant and my friend was so irritated. Its usually the reverse. So, I was patient and we headed to Besant Nagar. Autos ask exorbitant rates in Chennai but thats feasible than the cab rates. :)
Had lunch in a place called Karaikudi. My friend gorged on the meals. I stuck to plain rice and fish curry. Food was ok. The group that came towards the end of lunch was quite a sight to see. The leader of that gang was a middle-aged lady and was such a pissing show-off. Hell-bent on creating a scene and demanding unnecessary attention. Her friends (or so colleagues) were one dumb boring group of men and women. Sigh, she was one pain!
I love Chennai for many reasons... its my hometown, all my cousins stay there and last but not the least, the beach. I hate Chennai for its hot and humid weather but it does not stand anything against the beach. :) I am crazy about the ocean, such that a glimpse of it can get me berserk. After lunch, I was so excited to see the calm Besant Nagar. So walked around and did some window shopping in The dollar store, FabIndia and Health & Glow. I obviously did little shopping in Dollar store and Health & Glow, true to my nature. FabIndia was above my budget but I like visiting that place. One tidbit news - Its the one which comes in Mozhi movie. ;)
My friend was still irritated and exhausted after the 4 hour wait and the heat. So, we squatted in Arun's icecream parlour which is just around the corner from the beach. I was enjoying the kids there than the icecream. One of the kid's mom was complaining about her daughter to her friend. It made me wonder why she took the pains of having a kid at such a late age. Its better to have children when a woman is in her mid-20s or late-20s. You would have the strength to run around your lil one! :D Kids are after all meant to fool around and goof up! Ahem, lets see how I react when my little one goofs up and creates a mess! Long way to go, let me first hook up and get married!!! :D
Headed to the beach at 3:30pm and kept strolling till 5:15pm. Was a pleasure to see kids, dogs and people of all ages having fun! The color of the sea here is much more nicer than Marina and its cleaner too! I was so tempted to jump into the sea but then had to head back home that night. So made myself content with letting the waves lap at my feet. The waves are relentless and their incessant lashing is a story in itself! Listening to the waves and watching them always puts me at ease. :) Extremely therapeutic! We had fun making weird footprints and watching tiny white crabs, live shells. It might sound silly but a visit to the beach costs nothing. At the same time, its priceless! :) The ocean makes you realise that nature is mighty and man is so teeny-weeny compared to it. But man tends to forget such things easily. :)
After the fun time at the beach, my friend's mood got better. Thank God! I noticed the famous Murugan Idly shop just around the corner. So, headed there straight and gorged on yummy dosas and also a cup of degree kaapi. Sigh, it was so fulfilling. My friend had to drag me out of the beach. I wanted to literally stay there and could not take my eyes off the ocean. I took a video of the ocean though my mind's eye has captured the beauty better. Watching the video has become my feel-good factor.
Took an auto back to the airport. Flight was at 8:45pm. Air Deccan. My friend teased me saying I get to experience both international and national flight experience on the same day. True to his word, Deccan was a small ATR aircraft compared to the Jet Airways aircraft. Boarded it and got the window seat again. But it wasnt satisfying. I could not ask for more since I was exhausted and just wanted to head back home since the next day was a working day. Some jinxed prayers mine were... the flight could not land due to turbulent weather in BIA. So the pilot (an incomprehensible European) hovered the aircraft for over 2 hours and put us back in Chennai at 11:00 pm. All of us were frustrated so as to when an alternate flight would be arranged and it was so late already. To add to it, we were so hungry. Once we landed, a pleasant surprise waited. We were put in a Kingfisher flight!!! It was such a pleasant experience to see the plush seating, petite airhostesses and the mighty aircraft! Kudos to Vijay Mallya! I am a big fan of his now! I got the window seat again and it was so satisfying. We got to eat small sandwiches and it was just perfect. There was a good-looking but stinking dude sitting next to us and laughing over those recorded videos on the flight. Hmmm, he seemed interesting but was more of an empty vessel. Works in Infosys is my guess. :)
My friend and I were exhausted. So we could not completely realise the Kingfisher comforts but I will rave on about it for years to come. :) Landed at 12:45 and rushed to board the BIA shuttle. Thank God, the cab driver waited for us when we reached J B Nagar at 2. I had done the booking long back for 11pm but he waited for us till 2am. :) God bless him. We reached at 2:35 am and I was so worried about my friend who was dozing off to glory. Thankfully, all reached safe and the whole trip has become a memorable one! :)
I recounted all this to most of my immediate friends and obviously, my family. All of them teased me about my childish enthusiasm and gloating. He he.
No matter what others say, this trip would be recounted for years to come and its my most special one. After all, it has been a long time dream come true! Many would have had their first flight experience when they were much younger but mine was this one. To top it, I got to fulfill my wish of a one-day flight trip to Chennai wherein my whole purpose to visit was the beach. :D Ocean is definitely one of the best creations of God and nature. Sigh!
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
Timing and its answers - Jigsaw puzzle to be put in place
Well, I can hear my stomach growling for food. I shall not pay heed. Coz I want to blog this one and then take off! :)
I always periodically have severe mood swings and I dont really know if its only coz of PMS. I am so lost that I have decided to find the key for this set of Pandora's box at the earliest! I am already mentally set out on this and am determined to give it a try atleast. It doesnt matter if the timing is going to be too early or too late. I need it for my peace of mind.
I was reading Chetan Bhagat's blog titled "Sparks". Beautiful one. He basically says that you should live your life with sparks and also make sure you tackle four mind-blocks - frustration, isolation, boredom and compromise. I keep thinking what he means by saying "Dont live life too seriously." :) Coz I get serious even about the smallest teeny-weeny matter that looks like it might go wrong.
His blog coupled with "Secrets" is only making me do something that I really never imagined to be doing. I did it once and the timing was too late. I am gonna do it again and I guess the timing would be early. What the heck, I would atleast unentangle myself from all-consuming concentric web around me.
My attitude is neutral and I feel that makes me feel old. I am going to do this to make myself feel like a 17 year old. :D
I am scared I would fall into the pits of depression if my timing screws me up. Its because its not just about me. Anyways, everything in this world can be mended with time.
On the other hand, I know this can be a fresh chapter in my life which can add spring to my every step where I will scale to heights of success and good spirits that I always wanted in every sphere of my life.
Yet, I am waiting for one single hint from somewhere to tell me if its right to go on or not. I shall wait until you know when. :)
I always periodically have severe mood swings and I dont really know if its only coz of PMS. I am so lost that I have decided to find the key for this set of Pandora's box at the earliest! I am already mentally set out on this and am determined to give it a try atleast. It doesnt matter if the timing is going to be too early or too late. I need it for my peace of mind.
I was reading Chetan Bhagat's blog titled "Sparks". Beautiful one. He basically says that you should live your life with sparks and also make sure you tackle four mind-blocks - frustration, isolation, boredom and compromise. I keep thinking what he means by saying "Dont live life too seriously." :) Coz I get serious even about the smallest teeny-weeny matter that looks like it might go wrong.
His blog coupled with "Secrets" is only making me do something that I really never imagined to be doing. I did it once and the timing was too late. I am gonna do it again and I guess the timing would be early. What the heck, I would atleast unentangle myself from all-consuming concentric web around me.
My attitude is neutral and I feel that makes me feel old. I am going to do this to make myself feel like a 17 year old. :D
I am scared I would fall into the pits of depression if my timing screws me up. Its because its not just about me. Anyways, everything in this world can be mended with time.
On the other hand, I know this can be a fresh chapter in my life which can add spring to my every step where I will scale to heights of success and good spirits that I always wanted in every sphere of my life.
Yet, I am waiting for one single hint from somewhere to tell me if its right to go on or not. I shall wait until you know when. :)
Thursday, July 10, 2008
Realisation and miracles
Hmmm........ What I thought was quite there is actually really really there. I was told so today and I believe it more now. I am going to see it materialize it in the coming days and I betcha I will be right. Miracles happen!
Waiting with fast-paced bated breath! :) Stay tuned.
Waiting with fast-paced bated breath! :) Stay tuned.
Tuesday, July 8, 2008
Life aint just about one thing!
Talking of those concentric circles around me, I realised I cant let it take me completely like this. I was so depressed the whole of today. I had completely lost my mind. :) I was going to become my own worst nightmare if I lived like this.
I cant really talk it all out of my head to everyone or anyone since its such an entangled web. I sincerely wish I will be able to do that in a matter of some more time. I prefer lucidity than this foggy state of mind.
There are so many other things currently that demand my attention. I aint sure they are thoroughly enjoyable but they constitute an integral part of my life. So, I am gonna give those things their deserving due. :)
But kashish dil mein rahegi hi sahi! :) Talking of those concentric circles around me, I realised I cant let it take me completely like this. I was so depressed the whole of today. I had completely lost my mind. :) I was going to become my own worst nightmare if I lived like this.
I cant really talk it all out of my head to everyone or anyone since its such an entangled web. I sincerely wish I will be able to do that in a matter of some more time. I prefer lucidity than this foggy state of mind.
There are so many other things currently that demand my attention. I aint sure they are thoroughly enjoyable but they constitute an integral part of my life. So, I am gonna give those things their deserving due. :)
Par kashish dil mein rahegi hi sahi!
Also, I saw the movie "Serendipity" and it made me feel so much better. I was dying to see "Sleepless in Seattle" but the former movie made me feel good too. I am such a romantic fool! Ha ha. Life is all about everything and anything.
I cant really talk it all out of my head to everyone or anyone since its such an entangled web. I sincerely wish I will be able to do that in a matter of some more time. I prefer lucidity than this foggy state of mind.
There are so many other things currently that demand my attention. I aint sure they are thoroughly enjoyable but they constitute an integral part of my life. So, I am gonna give those things their deserving due. :)
But kashish dil mein rahegi hi sahi! :) Talking of those concentric circles around me, I realised I cant let it take me completely like this. I was so depressed the whole of today. I had completely lost my mind. :) I was going to become my own worst nightmare if I lived like this.
I cant really talk it all out of my head to everyone or anyone since its such an entangled web. I sincerely wish I will be able to do that in a matter of some more time. I prefer lucidity than this foggy state of mind.
There are so many other things currently that demand my attention. I aint sure they are thoroughly enjoyable but they constitute an integral part of my life. So, I am gonna give those things their deserving due. :)
Par kashish dil mein rahegi hi sahi!
Also, I saw the movie "Serendipity" and it made me feel so much better. I was dying to see "Sleepless in Seattle" but the former movie made me feel good too. I am such a romantic fool! Ha ha. Life is all about everything and anything.
Monday, July 7, 2008
Caught amidst a web of concentric circles!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hmmm, well, wondering what the title means?! Tough to explain. These concentric circles are something that I put myself in both involuntarily and voluntarily.
There are 3 in total. The inner-most one is completely close-ended. The middle one is almost becoming close-ended but has some gaps. The outer-most circle is perforated and almost transparent.
The close-ended one is making me claustrophobic. Not anybody's fault but thats how it was meant to be, right from the start. I am trying to make some room to breathe. Its either taking its own time or I am destined to not get any of it. I sometimes just wish the circle almost vanishes. And sometimes I wish for the opposite.
The middle one is so mysterious that I might call it a mirage. It sometimes looks like its there and I yearn for it to become a perfect circle of contentment. But lo, it just keeps playing tricks on me.
The outermost one is mysterious in its own way and has a double-edge to it. Since its perforated all over, I am not really concerned about it. I believe I have the strength to handle it, come what may.
Now the catch is my focus is drifting towards the middle one from the closest one. And I wonder how things will turn out. I am not prepared but I am somewhat prepared too. I don't want the white flag.
Fortunately or unfortunately, many thick, thin and miraged concentric circles appeared and disappeared on their own in the course of time. Some have scarred me for life due to circumstantial misfitting. Some have been a learning. But I repeat I don't want the white flag with regard to the current focus.
"Itni shiddad se tumhe paane ki koshish ki hai... ki har zarre ne mujhe tumse mulane ki saajish ki hai. Kehte hain ki kisi cheez ko agar dil se chaho tho, poori kaayanath tumse use milane ki koshish mein lag jaathi hai. Aaj aap sab logon ne muje apni chaahath se mila diya. Iskeliye main aap sab ko tahe dil se shukriya adha kartha hoon. Hamaari hindi filmon ki tarah humaari zindagi mein bhi end mein sab kuch theek ho jaata hain. Aur agar kuch theek nahin hui tho, kahani abhi khatm nahin hui. Picture abhi baaki hain, mere dost" - One of my most favorite dialogues. I got goosebumps when I was watching Shahrukh tell it in Om Shanti Om. Life needs to tell me if its true. And I do believe its true.
I have no idea why life gets so intricately delicately complicated. Its nice to know some special things exist. Life is definitely interesting somehow because of that. But its sometimes exhausting too to see if its worth it since it means all the way.
There are 3 in total. The inner-most one is completely close-ended. The middle one is almost becoming close-ended but has some gaps. The outer-most circle is perforated and almost transparent.
The close-ended one is making me claustrophobic. Not anybody's fault but thats how it was meant to be, right from the start. I am trying to make some room to breathe. Its either taking its own time or I am destined to not get any of it. I sometimes just wish the circle almost vanishes. And sometimes I wish for the opposite.
The middle one is so mysterious that I might call it a mirage. It sometimes looks like its there and I yearn for it to become a perfect circle of contentment. But lo, it just keeps playing tricks on me.
The outermost one is mysterious in its own way and has a double-edge to it. Since its perforated all over, I am not really concerned about it. I believe I have the strength to handle it, come what may.
Now the catch is my focus is drifting towards the middle one from the closest one. And I wonder how things will turn out. I am not prepared but I am somewhat prepared too. I don't want the white flag.
Fortunately or unfortunately, many thick, thin and miraged concentric circles appeared and disappeared on their own in the course of time. Some have scarred me for life due to circumstantial misfitting. Some have been a learning. But I repeat I don't want the white flag with regard to the current focus.
"Itni shiddad se tumhe paane ki koshish ki hai... ki har zarre ne mujhe tumse mulane ki saajish ki hai. Kehte hain ki kisi cheez ko agar dil se chaho tho, poori kaayanath tumse use milane ki koshish mein lag jaathi hai. Aaj aap sab logon ne muje apni chaahath se mila diya. Iskeliye main aap sab ko tahe dil se shukriya adha kartha hoon. Hamaari hindi filmon ki tarah humaari zindagi mein bhi end mein sab kuch theek ho jaata hain. Aur agar kuch theek nahin hui tho, kahani abhi khatm nahin hui. Picture abhi baaki hain, mere dost" - One of my most favorite dialogues. I got goosebumps when I was watching Shahrukh tell it in Om Shanti Om. Life needs to tell me if its true. And I do believe its true.
I have no idea why life gets so intricately delicately complicated. Its nice to know some special things exist. Life is definitely interesting somehow because of that. But its sometimes exhausting too to see if its worth it since it means all the way.
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